I was never prepared to be a mum I didn’t even know that I was pregnant until I was 3 + month I did not notice the early signs but from then when I found out that I’m gonna be a mum I panicked I was afraid but I was also excited wondering if I would have a baby girl or a baby boy asking myself questions if I’m ready to be a mother am I going to be a good mother I went through pregnancy facing all the challenges being faced from pregnancy I gave birth to my wonderful baby girl after giving birth to her I was so excited I was so overwhelmed I didn’t want anyone to help me I wanted to do it on my own even though I was a first-time mum my family offered to help me out but I wanted to do it all on my own but in the end I felt overwhelmed I felt frustrated I spiralled down the Rabbit Hole I became depressed and I felt as if I was not a good enough Mum to my daughter whatever I did I felt as if like I was failing her I got even worse depressed when conflict came up between the two families the paternal side and the maternal side there were issues that made me even more depressed to the point that I felt that I wasn’t fit enough to be a mother to my daughter that was something else that was that part of my life that I do not wish to go through again it took me sometime to deal with every situation even now I haven’t dealt with it completely my daughter is 3 but still I remember what I went through even though now I am a single mum and the paternal side is nowhere to be found I still struggle to control my emotions I still struggle on how to treat my daughter and how to handle her tantrums
Everyday is a learning curve for both me and my daughter we found new ways to communicate just between the both of us even though I sometimes have thoughts in my head I know very well that a lot of situation will arrive I always Hope and Pray for the best being a mum is not always nice and easy it has its challenges so we have to always know how to embrace those up and downs